For us here in the North, the Autumnal or Fall Equinox is upon us, while for my dear friends “down under” it’s the Vernal Equinox. Now more than ever, this is a time to honor yourself and your journey! Equinox energy slaps us the face with a reminder that we need balance in life – balance between the light and the darkness.
We are’t meant to be only light. We are one part darkness and when we deny this under the pretense of being love, light, and namaste we do ourselves a massive disservice. Where does darkness show up for you? I suppressed mine for a long time and thus it fueled a massive drug addiction for 15 years of my life. Now I honor it.
It’s time to stop running…
We spend so much of our lives running away from the darkness, the pain, the hurt, the sadness. Whatever it is for you that fits in the box that you personally label darkness, chances are you’ve spent a good portion of your life running away from it. For whatever reason, we just don’t get taught that the darkness is a natural part of our human existence—a part to be invoked, explored, and celebrated.
During the Equinox, the Earth sits in a momentary point of balance between dark and light. On both Equinoxes of the year, day and night are in balance, after which the sun continues to strengthen as the days grow longer or shorter depending on which hemisphere you are in. This culminates in the Summer or Winter Solstice, the longest or shortest day of the year, and then the sun begins to decline or increase again as the days grow shorter or longer (again depending where you are).
In the North we are now moving closer to our season of darkness – the long nights of winter.
But there is nothing to fear. We can use this time for massive self-reflection, connection, gestation, and deep healing.
All throughout the history of the ancient world, we find that the Autumnal Equinox is a time of great confrontation between the forces of darkness and light. We see it in the death and resurrection myths of central deities all throughout ancient spiritual and religious sects, cultures, and religions. We see these stories play out in various Earth worshipping traditions over and over again. To me, it’s fascinating and it shows me that we are presently on the same journey as the ancients who came before us. This journey to self-realization, which ultimately brings enlightenment and freedom from samadhi, begins when we face the darkness and accept it as much as we do the light—within ourselves and the world.
The deeper meaning of Fall Equinox
I read something recently that articulated it perfectly, which I want to share with you:
“It is easy for us to rationalize and understand separation and duality with our logical minds, but when you enter into the higher realms, you understand that everything is connected and we are all one and the same. This can be seen in the yin and yang symbol. There is a little bit of everything in everything, and together it all makes up a whole.
Perhaps we are reminded of this fact on the Equinox.
There is no lightness reigning supreme over darkness, there is no darkness overcoming lightness, instead everything is in balance.” ~ Tanaaz
How to work with the Fall Equinox
On this sacred day of balance, we can start by sitting with ourselves and our breath. You can do this at anytime. It doesn’t have to be a particular time, however, anything you do during the moment of Equinox will be amplified.
We can connect to the stillness within in order to face what we usually run away from. We can go outside, sit in the sun for a few moments and connect with the Divine Mother Gaia. Take any stones you might want to work with today (snowflake obsidian, sheen obsidian, kambaba jasper, dravite, citrine, or anything that speaks to you for deep soul and shadow work).
Sit and take a moment to connect. As you inhale, first breathe in the night. Take in the darkness, bringing it into your lungs. Visualize the night as it fills you up and feel it throughout your body all the way down into your Muladahara (Root) Chakra. Honor it and greet it with open arms and receptivity. Sit with it and embrace it.
Now exhale and as you bring it up from the depths of your being, feel it as it transmutes into light. Send this transformed darkness back to the world.
On your next inhale, call in the light. Breathe it in, pulling it into your lungs and down into your belly. Let it fill you up, feeling its golden warmth as it fills you from Sahasrara (Crown) to Muladahara. Allow it to spread to every part of your physical body. Visualize the light fading to darkness and greet it happily. This is sacred darkness. It is honored, held, and healed.
As you begin to exhale push the breath out. Place your hands on the earth next to you as you send this transmuted integrated darkness down into the ground and out into the wind. See it as it greets others. Let it serve as an example and a comfort of what can be found in the darkness.
Repeat the breathing exercise three to five times and then pause in your own momentary state of balance. Reflect on what is coming up in you. Perhaps you want to journal about your feelings or thoughts. Pay special attention to any wounds or pain that are coming up—these are opportunities for great healing. Practice the breathing exercise with the specific area of pain or darkness that is coming up for you. Cycle through the breathing. Call in and transmute both darkness and light as you send it directly to the specific area. Do it as many times as you need to.
Now…what do you want to create?
When you feel as though you are in a space of integrated balance, make a list of what you want to create in your life in the coming months. Keep this list where you can see it regularly and practice creating those ideals in your life each day. Take one small action each day that puts you closer toward your ideal—rather than stepping away from it.
Remember, Fall Equinox is a harvest time here in the North, and is a deep grounding period. Diving deep and taking honest stock here helps us to navigate the rest of our year. What have you not brought to manifestation this year that you sought to create at the beginning of the year? What intentions did you set that withered and died before coming to fruition? Are you ready to take responsibility in your life to be a conscious co-creator?
Mabon, aka Fall Equinox, is also a holiday of remembrance and releasing. It is a time of acknowledging the crops that didn’t make it to fruition, literally and figuratively. This is a time that asks: What do you need to let go of right now, so that you can be fully present to what is ahead of you? We can acknowledge here that not everything survives in the grand cycle of life.
Fall Equinox is the perfect day to tap into your own unique design of light and dark. It’s the day to honor your journey. Honor every moment of it, the good, the bad, the ugly, and the chaotic. Every ounce of it made you who you are today. That’s exactly why we started Hug Your Chaos because the world needs more celebration of the darkness that is part of who we are.
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